15 April 2010

skies are clearing.

I would be lying if I didn’t tell you how badly my fingers itched to delete my last post.

I forced myself to leave it alone and reflect on it. I thought about why I started blogging: to keep in touch with family, as my creative outlet, as my own personal “soapbox”, and most important to journal my day to day life.

I can’t deny what is true and real. I may be embarrassed at how dramatic I was, but that was an honest open look at the sorrow in my soul that day. It certainly didn’t help that a particularly bad patch in my life coincided with a “hormonally unstable” time of the month resulting in a perfect storm of depression.

We all have our flaws.

Some may have a crazy mole that sprouts occasional hairs on their chin that they keep emergency tweezers with them for this said hair. Or, the occasional depression that rolls in faster than a spring storm.

Thankfully, I have a sweet sister that calls me up and says, “Where are those emergency tweezers (or “happy pills”), babe you need some help.”

I will be leaving that last post right where it is, just in case someone needs it.

I hope that if someone reads it they will see that other people are like them and find comfort in it. Or even, “Wow, that girl is much more unstable than me. I think everything is going to be okay.”

It’s alright to not be perfect all the time, the point is to recognize your weaknesses and know how and where to seek help for them. The people that matter will still be there when you get back up and dust yourself off.

Thank you family and friends that offered prayer and kind words, I know the strength and peace in my soul is because of you. I feel loved, stupid chin mole and all.


  1. Angie, I saw nothing wrong with your post. I guess I am one of those people that reads your blog and says "Thank God in Heaven that I'm not alone!". Wish we hadn't lost touch, but glad to have you and your blogs back in my world!

    Hugs, Shara

  2. I'm with Shara....things are not always perfect, and never will be, but Jesus will carry us through the storms of life!
    Would have responded sooner, but our CPU was in the computer ER!

  3. Amen ladies, I saw nothing wrong with the post either Angie, it was how you felt and I hope you always feel able to share that with others. We all need each other to help keep us strong. That is why God gave us friends and family, we can't do this thing called life alone!